Relentless Ramblings of a Thoughtless Mind

Aww. Livejournal is fun. I was reading through my old entries and I was like "aww... this is fun."

Hey, still alive?
Wondering if I was?
Happy birthday, Leanne. Sorry I'm late, I was going to wish you one ON your birthday, but it slipped my mind. And now you're in Indiana so it'll be even later by the time you read this... but happy birthday none-the-less.
This might catch things up a bit.

Who was the last person...
1. You hung out with?
Hallie

2. Rode in a car with?
Hallie

3. You went to the mall with?
Abby, Elise and The Guys.

4. You talked on the phone to?
Tamara?

5. Made you laugh?
Josiah or Andrew

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
Nose

2. Be serious or be funny?
Funny

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
niether

4. Die in a fire or drown?
Drown

5. Spend time with your parents or enemies?
parents.

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you like anyone?:
Yeah.

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.

1. Sun or moon?:
moon.

2. Winter or Fall?
fall.

3. left or right?
right.

4. 10 acquaintances or two best friends?:
two best friends.

5. Sunny or rainy?:
rainy

6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?:
Vanilla

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What time is it?:
9:29 p.m. How is this about me?

2. First Name?
Dagmar

3. What do you want to do?:
Nothing that I've thought of so far.

4. Where do you wanna live?
Heaven

5. How many kids do you want?: .
...

6. You want to get married?
Eventually.

7. Are you double jointed?
I'm sure I could be.

8. Can you cross your eyes?
Yes.

9. Do you make your bed daily?
No..

R A N D O M.

1. Which shoe goes on first?:
Right

2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone?
Of course.

3. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl

2. Have you ever eaten Spam?
No.

3. Favorite ice cream?
Oreo, or peanut butter chunk

4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?
A few.

5. Do you cook?:
If I have to

6. Whats your mood?
"Brianna"

IN . THE. LAST. 48 HOURS. HAVE. YOU.

1. Bought something?
No.

2. Sang?
Yes.

3. Been hugged?
Um.... more like my whole body was strangled (by a Josiah/Andrew group hug)

4. Felt stupid?
No more than usual.

5. Missed someone:
Yes.

6. Danced Crazy:
No.

7. Gotten your hair cut?
No, unfortunately.

8. Cried:
Not for a while.

9. Lied:
Probably.

10. Kissed someone?
No.

 

. S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
No

3. When's the last time you've been sledding?
Last winter.

4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
Alone.

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
No...

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
Not especially.

I cleaned my closet today. AH! Scary.

You called it, Abby. I don't really like blogging anymore, for a little while anyway. But here are some quotes from my week with Derrick and his family.

Me: Derrick I love you.
Derrick: I love you more.
Me: I love you most.
Derrick: I love you to infinity
Me: Derrick, I love you more than I love mySELF.
Derrick: .....

I won that argument.
**

Me: Abby you complain more than a camel without legs!
Derrick: She talks more than a cow with it's mouth sewn shut!

We're so clever.
**

Jim: Ohh, the conciet of youth.
**

Me: Someone's asked me if i was bi before.
Max: What'd you say?
Me: I said "wouldn't you like to know?" and then I kissed her.
**

Max: Ohhh Derrick, why must you be Derrick?
**

All in all it was a very good week, though the fun didn't really start until sunday at 6:30 am when the rest of the zaworski family beat down the door and invaded the house until monday afternoon. Lots of people. Lots of noise. Lots of sugar. And lots of hiding from annoying people on Max's and my part.
**

I may update, I may not. Ryan will be here within the next couple of days, and derrick is coming over today, and with these people come all of the other friends who have missed Ryan dearly, so I think I shall be very busy for the rest of the weekend and week after that. Have a nice next few days.

*big yawn*  Good morning everyone! I hope you're having a wonderful day!!!!

See, with all those exclamation points, I am fooling people into believing that I'm a morning person. hahahaha, suckers.
Josiah said something about us going to Michaels today... but I asked him last night and he wouldn't give me any kind of straight answer. So I turned to Elise and was like "will you please ask him if we're going to Mike's tomorrow?" And when SHE asked him he answered, of course. But he hasn't talked to mom about it or mowed the lawn so I don't think we're going. Too bad.
But other than that, things have been good. Andrew has been here just about everyday. So has Danny, which is cool too. We went with Andrew on Thursday to see his creepy sister while she was working. I'm just kidding. She's not creepy.
Yesterday Elise was here, but they were gone pretty much all day. They went to see Pirates of the Caribbean 2... I was so heartbroken that I didn't get to see it. *sniffle sniffle* Oh well, I'll just have to see it with some of my COOL friends. Leanne, you're invited. 

This Monday Abby and I will be going back to the Zaworski's to help clean up their house cuz they're having other company. Aunt Vickie has had recent surgery so she's not suppose to lift anything remotely heavy so she can't clean it herself and guys just won't do it right. So this is where Abby and I come in. Girl enough to turn their house into a palace, guy enough to keep Derrick off everyone's backs ;-) We might be staying there for a week. That would be so cool, it would be like a little vacation. And when we come back our pool will probably be open. And  we'll be that much close to Ryan's visit.  And after Ryan's visit, we're taking a 2 week vacation to the U.P. Wheeeeee so much happening. 

But now it is time for breakfast.

Ohhh. It's not the flesh being cut, it's the binds that are binding the hands together that's being cut. 

I really don't know what it is about people that we always have to beat eachother. I don't think I'm really too bad... I don't mind if someone is better than me, it's just that when someone is being openly arrogant about being stronger that makes me have to beat them. Perhaps my tendency to humble people is part of my self absorbtion. But anyway...

We didn't go in the parade today. Mrs Benson felt like her left side was weak... so there was a bit of fear for stroke so they went to the hospital and didn't come get us. I think she's ok but they haven't called since then... so I hope she's alright. I think they would have called if something was wrong... maybe not though... Personally, I don't see much use in worrying about it.

Do you think that's a downside in me? That I never take anything very seriously, even very serious matters? I know it's unhealthy to worry too much... and I know that it's unhealthy to worry too little... I just wonder if it's balanced in me...

*stops rambling just long enough to think it through*

All that about worrying or not worrying is a perfect example of worrying.  *laughs at herself for making thought so difficult*

I'm gonna go get something to eat before I faint.

You still haven't told me what makes my background so creepy.

So yesterday we went to our friend's (Zaworski's) house. Josiah was still with the Heads so he couldn't make it. Which was too bad, Derrick was probably looking forward to geeking out with him over video games and such. But we had a good time anyway. Just chilled, and ate, and wrestled, and walked, and ate, and drew. Today Derrick and I went for a quick bike ride. *sigh* nothing like what I expected. I was already tired from playing hard, not eating right, not drinking enough water, not getting good sleep, and having low blood sugar. Not to mention it's a mental workout to hang with Derrick cuz he tends to be arrogant. So a pleasent bike ride was more like competition because he always wants to outdo people, and I'm a girl so I can't let him outdo me because that would give him much more head than he really needs. So I was just gritting my teeth and pushing myself up those hills until I finally fixed the gears and it was more easy going but by that time I was hyperventilating and had to sit down for a minute. Derricks, "huh, this is normal stuff for me. I got my bikers legs a long time ago." told me that he pretty much figured he had won. Oh well.  The thing is that I can't tell him off for being like that because that's just how he is raised. He doesn't think there's anything wrong with it cuz no one's ever told him there is. And I'm afraid to yell at him for it because I just feel like he might be so fragile, I don't want to hurt his feelings. I think he'll grow out of it eventually.
But besides all the bitching I just did, we really did have a great time. It's strange being there because it's just like home, so even though I was only there for a couple of days it felt like I was there forever. So while I was ready to go home it was a little sad to leave. Aunt Vickie was teaching me how to play the guitar. I already know most of the chords I just don't have any songs to play and I lack the imagination to make any. So we were having fun. I told her I was going to spend the summer there and she was going to teach me how to play so that someday I could be in a rock band. (And when I'm rich and famous I'm going to buy her a helecopter) When we got back from the bike ride she asked me to play a couple of songs for her on the piano. Normally I get a little nervous when I have to play for other people (even family) but I was so out of it at that time that I just went through the songs on instinct and hardly noticed that I was playing. I guess I played pretty good too... *shrug* Tomorrow Abby and I are going to walk in a parade to help promote Judge Benson for circuit court. If any of you are voting, vote for him cuz he's the coolest guy you'll ever meet.
Well I'm tired and hungry.

What's so creepy about my background? Hmm.. I thought it was cool... Oh well. I don't mind being a weirdo.  You are just as much of a weirdo as I am. So there. Ahahahaha.

Hmm... Such a quiet house. It's very relaxing. Just the low, rhythmic droan of the dishwasher... the quiet twinkling of the fishtank and the distand sound of the dryer. I can hear the faint footsteps of my dad in his room. Or perhaps I'm just imagining that because I know he's here.

Oh now I'm getting sleepy.

Yeah... you're just being nice in saying it's beautiful. I myself have gotten used to it almost to the point of liking it. But at first I hated it. I didn't like how dark it was, or how unlike me it was. I didn't like thinking that other people would get the wrong idea. But now, I don't care. It is a good piece. It is artistic and creative and it captures imagination in just a few lines.

I actually wrote it for one of my online friends. He's pretty much a musical genius, and he writes songs and stuff like that all the time just on the spot. (really, it's pretty amazing) And he challenged me to write him a song in 24 hours. So I did but it took one day longer.

Anyway... it's saturday and tomorrow we'll be leaving to go to the Zaworski's. We're gonna spend the night too. I can't believe it's been a year since we've seen them. Derrick and I will be extra chaotic to make up for all the mischief we HAVE'NT caused. 
And Josiah is currently on a vacation with Elise and her family. He get's the honor of going to their family reunion. It's kind of funny actually... but anyway, he'll be back sometime tomorrow and I'm gonna go... do something else. Maybe get out of my pj's. I hate sleeping in till noon, I always get such a sleep hangover.

Well talk to you later.

Look into my eyes and see a world that is perfect
Calm, sweet composure, the essence of perfection and purity
Look into my soul, and see a nightmare ready to come true
The surface of my story is a mere fabrication
Just like the calmest seas that are indifferent to the monsters held within
I've lied enough to believe my own words
But something's got to break
Evil bids it's time just waiting to unfold
The day it falls apart will be the day of my awakening
The truest me will forge a new path
Lead by terror and destruction
A new darkness in me before which even shadows fade
My soul rises with the night taking on new forms and shapes
Residing in the dreams of those who fear the depths of sleep
No longer bound by the chains of superstitious control
Stripped of all mortality, only now am I truly free
Indifferent to the weary cries of everyone who's crushed
No longer imprisoned between two worlds now that I've taken one step further
Look into my eyes and see a soul that is long gone
Like a night that finally dies
And is buried by daylight's awakening


Yes... I wrote it.

Ahhh big happy sigh.  We spent a long day at Lake Michigan. It was 80 degrees when we left here but apparently the lake was cooling things down cuz it was only 70 on the beach.  The water was warm though and the waves were so huge. Abby and I were right out there in the water, body surfing. So much fun. Later in the day something really strange and quite humorous happened. This lady and a 2 year old boy (named Dason) came near us and then Dason just came up and climbed into mom's lap. The lady who's name is Mary and she's his grandma just laughed and then struck up conversation with mom. And then Dason got down and came over and climbed onto MY lap. I was like, "um... hi, what's up?" He made for boring conversation though considering he couldn't really talk... so I gave up trying to interest him in friendly diologue pretty quickly. I was really confused at this strange lady just coming over and making friends... that's never happened... Before I knew it they were talking about books and everything. And then Dason grabbed my can of brisk and took a swig and I was like "uhhh... okay then..." It was kinda funny, though I was a little discouraged because his guardian didn't even think to correct him and teach him that he shouldn't be so rude. Honestly, do you think people will put up with that when he's in his 20's? Well... if his parents and grandparents don't teach him I'm sure a few juvenile fists will. Either way nature will take care of him. Then we started making sand castles. Him and Mary just kinda hung out for the rest of the day. She and mom became pretty good friends, they've got a lot of the same interests. At one point Dason ran over to another family and got in their cooler before josiah ran after him. I thought that was pretty funny. Later on Dad and Josey were playin with a football and dad caught it, dropped it, told Josiah they had to take a quick break then came over and we saw that one of his fingers was bent forward at the last joint and stuck that way.... That was a pretty good sign something was wrong. So we packed it up and came home. We were all pretty beat anyway. Dad's finger is doin fine. It wouldn't be much of a problem if he didn't depend on his hands so much for a living. But anyway... This entry has been long enough... Good bye.

Weekends aren't much different than weekdays around here. But I still look forward to them because they hold more opportunities for excitement.
None of which has happened so far....
Except that my mom and I hung out for a little while today. That was cool cuz we don't normally do that. We mostly just went for a drive and made a few stops. The first and most important being our stop at the gas station for cappacino. And we went to dots and prophesized. We are predicting that soon you will have to go to a special store just to get a size small. The life of clothes shopping is going to be very difficult for me.
Well, I'm bored of this.. Nothing happens in my mind anymore. It is even more thoughtless than usual. Have a nice weekend = ) 

Mmmm Pepsi. Brianna is a happy person tonight.
I spent today at Hallie's house. We washed her mom's car and then did basically nothing for the rest of the day. That's how it usually goes. We're lazy.  Mostly I just do whatever she wants to do, until evening time when I'm so sick of sitting around I tell her we're going to go do something outside. After dinner (which was cheeseburgers of which I had 2 *pukes* vegetarians should stay vegetarian.) After dinner Hallie, Zoe and I went outside and we started a very organized game of monkey in the middle. Though it eventually turned into a more dramatic game of keep away. And then their dad came out to join us and it became a hardcore game of keep away until none of us could breathe and we were dripping with sweat. We then stuck our heads under the hose and got our hair all soaking wet and then watched tv until mom came and picked me up. Now I am sitting here with nothing else to say....

I shall drink pepsi.

Oh and one more thing which I  think is just so cool (and funny)
My rabbit killed a mouse either today or last night. Abby said they found a mouse in her pen that had been stomped to death.
I'm so proud of my little bunny. :-D

We got a new van yesterday. It's blue. Me = happy because it's blue.
I also dyed the ends of my bangs bright red. But the only reason I was allowed was because I'm going in on Wednesday to get my summer-cut and the deal was that whatever I dyed had to get cut off. So this color change in my hair is only temporary.
I'm glad I was able to at least try it though because I discovered that I don't really think red is the right color for me. Of course everyone told me this already, and I agreed with them. But that's not the point. I wanted to try it, and now that I've tried it, I'm perfectly happy to cut away the evidence. 

I think that the next time I try something bold I want blue highlights with bright yellow tips. What do you think Leanne? Be honest. (*laughs*  that's like telling water to be wet.)

And now, because everything is all about me, I shall continue talking about myself.
I have recently found inspiration for a new song. Only... I've only gotten so far. I tihnk that if I were to write the music down it'd only be a few lines... so I'm not doing all that great and I get somewhat frustrated every time I sit down and try to add on to it. 
But this is okay because at least I have a start and if I ever take lessons and learn how to write music then I'll have something to work with.

Mom gave me 2 rings today. One is a plain silver ring that we thought was the one that Aunt D.D. made for her, but we discovered it wasnt. Though she said I could have it anyway. And then I found Aunt D.D.s ring and Mom gave that to me too.
I love silver rings. 

Okay, that's my story.

If you feel like you are lacking faith, you should remember the lyrics to this song.


*

The question asked in order
To save her life or take it
The answer no to avoid death
The answer yes would make it

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger

All heads are bowed in silence
To remember her last sentence
She answered him knowing what would happen
Her last words still hanging in the air
In the air

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger

How many will die
I will die
I, I will say yes

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger
Do you believe in God
Do you believe in God
Do you believe in God

And I will pull the trigger

Time again for my blue moonly update. What's up?
We're just chillin out here today.
Andrew came over last night and hung out with Abby and I while Josiah went out to dinner, then when he got home they played video games while I ignored them. 

Me: Andrew, what's your problem? I haven't been mean to you in the past five minutes!
Andrew: I know. I'm feeling neglected.

That's how our conversations usually go.

So after thuh parents went to bed I snuck outside and joined the guys at the trampoline and we talked about zombies. It was really nice outside. I was out there in my T-shirt and it was perfectly comfortable. Though it did start raining a little bit so I put on my jacket and we all layed out on the trampoline. So nice. It started to rain harder then and we made a tent out of Josiah's jacket. 

It was a really crappy tent.

And just about the time I was going to say it Andrew said that there was a puddle of water gathering around his back and we all went inside. Josiah and I cleaned his room, and then he worked out, Andrew played Grand Theft Auto III and I read my first Spawn comic book. Yays. Spawn is cool.

Well I'm going now. I have said pleanty about my life and I wish to read more about yours.
So write more so that I can read it. 

Or come over to my house and tell me about it. You can bring Andrew too if he's not working. We have superman popcicles.
I really should use my little mood icons more. Tee hee.

Hello to the 2 people who read this.
So today looks like work, work , work. Good. It'll give me a chance to work out the stiffness in my back from the last time I worked. We're spreading manure on our garden so lots of shoveling is required.
So, there's a chance that I might be able to get a summer job. Down at the stables we just got the manure from, the guy's 2 workers just left so Josiah is definitely hired, and there's a chance that I might get a job too. That would be pretty cool, I think. And once I get money, I can buy you stuff. Or maybe just skip the you and buy stuff for me! 
ahahahahahahhaha
It's genius!

Strange....
It doesn't seem like just yesterday that I updated... Time doesn't tend to stay regular for me though. Sometimes it seems to be too fast, other times it seems like it still hasn't caught up. Oh well.

I feel irritable today. I'm not in a bad mood or anything, I feel perfectly pleasent. But there's just this little nagging feeling at the back of my mind like there's just too much to do and I'm the only one who can do it. Of course this isn't true though.

My theory is the weather. For the past week it's been completely overcast, day in and day out. Rainy. Cold. Humid. Depressing. My favorite kind of weather all around. And then today I wake up and there's sun pooling into my room. And I love sunny weather, especially when I get to be out in it. But I've just become so accustumed to overcast, I think the sudden brightness and openess is too much of a shock. And that makes me feel irritable. 
I do feel better now though, than I did this morning. It's probably because it's clouded over a little bit.
And I've injected caffiene into my veins.

Toodle-oo

Mmm talky talky. 
Hopefully I can spend today practicing to be world famous. (and rich) I haven't had much time to practice the piano. Or at least I didn't yesterday. I find it's easier to practice when there are fewer people to intrude on my imaginative influence.
People are really no good for imagination. To have a good imagination it has to be just YOU and no one else except those few people you've let into your thoughts.
Much the same with voodoo.
Just KIDDING.

But on the subject of imagination; Mine SUCKS.
I'm seriously considering becoming a hermit. You thought I was just kidding. Little did you know that this plan was put into action long ago. Of course, I won't live TOTALLY alone. I'll just have a separate place to store my slaves. And they can drop by and massage my feet and build me more castles when I'm not busy practicing to be world famous. 

Now.... It is time for me to.... do something else.....
*slowly walks away backwards while stuffing a voodoo doll into her pocket*
It's not what you think...
Seriously.

Hello...
Internet blogging seems to be a dying thing.
Could it be that people have found a better use of their time?
I doubt it.

The weekend is almost over and it feels like it never began. Some part of me actually prefers the week to the weekend. 

What have you been up to Leanne?
(You're the only one who evah comes to meh LJ)

Well I think I'm going to go........ somewhere.......
hehe, I'll probably just stay here for the rest of the night :-D

I'll be on IM if you wanna talk. I don't have you on my list though so add me to yours.
L1ttleWh1sper

Ahhh finally I've gotten around to it. I've found myself meaning to update several times this week, but everytime I've sat down I've realized that I don't have much of anything to say.

I still don't have anything to say, but I guess I'll make a big deal out of saying nothing.

My sister and I were outside for quite a bit. We saw some people walking all through our woods so we went and investigated. It was just the next door neighbors though and they're practically family so our yard is as good as theirs.

They were looking for mushrooms and were without luck in finding any. Too bad.

We then continued to explore our woods. We always do that though so we didn't really see anything new...
But I love the woods when it's all green and marshy. Makes me feel like I'm in a rain forest.

Of course I wouldn't know what that feels like.

I'm trying to convince my brother to go out and buy me some pepsi.
(with my money of course, I don't mooch if I can help it)

Well that's my entry. Hope you enjoyed.